Sunday, June 18, 2017

Holding Amma's Hand

Dreamed that at the last minute I got in the greeting line for Amma's arrival to a darshan program. It seemed like we were outdoors. Then I saw Amma walking down the path and touching the hands of all the people on either side of her. She was wearing her usual bright white saree, and there was grass on either side of the path. Before she got to me she stopped at a group of young Indian men. She got on her knees and was hugging one of them and reaching out and grabbing the butt of another young man. Then she stood up, continued walking and came to me. I was on her left side and I reached out and held her left hand. I was thinking she would pull her hand away quickly but she didn't. So I started kissing her hand and holding it to my forehead. It was wonderful! I was feeling a lot of devotion. I could very clearly feel her hand in mine. Been a while since I felt such nice devotion in an Amma dream. Thanks, Amma!

Then the dream switched and my Dad was setting out dinner for me, my Amma friend Sanatan and my younger brother Terry.

Comment: I'm doing a particular spiritual practice until the end of this month and my feeling is that Amma was appreciating the practice.

Tuesday, June 06, 2017

Seeing Amma in the Car Behind Mine.

Dreamed that I was talking Tim or Teresa (my older brother and sister) about Terry (my younger brother) becoming a Buddhist. Then I was packing the car and I let down the back gate of the car without thinking and it almost hit the car that was parked behind my car. I looked into the other car and there was Amma in the passenger seat. I could see her very clearly. She was looking at the back gate to see if it had hit her car. She was not upset, just curious. I was feeling very embarrassed and frustrated at myself. Then I realized that my car was moving and I had left the driver's seat. Then Amma was standing outside my car and I stepped out and bowed down to her. I was surprised at how clearly I could see Amma, and I was frustrated at myself that I didn't take the opportunity to talk with her.

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Amma Needs to do Pujas to Handle Upcoming "Trimundis" and "Trimurgas".

Dreamed that I was asking Amma if I could get some "bicarbonate of soda" at the drug store. I needed it for some medical condition I had or for my anxiety. Then I was watching Amma in the drug store talking to the pharmacist lady. The pharmacist was also dressed in a white saree.

Then Amma walked out of the drug store and told me that it was OK for me to take the bicarbonate of soda medicine. She also said she was looking into the future and there were lots of "trimundis" or "trimurgas" coming and she had to do some big pujas (hindu rituals) in order to handle them. Apparently trimundis and trimurgas refer to some kind of upcoming global negative energies.

Then Amma bent over with her face close to her knees like she was in pain. I put my hand on her lower back to try and help relieve her pain. Amma now looked like a man and was wearing a gray shirt. Even though she was bent over she could still walk and I was happy she was taking the time to talk with me.

Comment: Google search: Apparently "murga" refers to some type of punishment that used to be done to boys in Indian schools. The boys had to stand up and then bend over face to knees in a painful way. I have no memory of ever hearing about this murga punishment previously.

Sunday, April 02, 2017

Amma Appears as a Young Blonde Girl. Lyon is Correct.

Dreamed that I was doing some tasks in an apartment that had wooden floors. I heard a knock on the door and when I opened it I saw Amma! Yay! I was very happy. But it was Amma in the form of a young blonde Caucasian girl about 6 years old. And it was 100% clear that the little girl was Amma. I bent down to touch her feet. She was wearing a light green dress with some kind of flower design. Amma spoke for a while in Malayalam (her native language) and another little girl was beside her. Amma was holding a white bucket. Then Amma asked me what was the last Amma program in France? I immediately replied "Lyon" which was the right answer. I don't know how I knew that. Amma was happy with my answer and said "Yes, that's correct." I was feeling very happy to be close to Amma. Then Amma walked away and I tried to follow but was not able to.

Monday, February 06, 2017

Amma Digs Some Holes, Then a Treasure Chest.

Dreamed that Amma was outside at a program. She was sitting on the grass with me and some other devotees sitting nearby. It was a nice sunny day with nice blue skies. Then the scene switched and Amma was digging a big square hole in the ground like a grave. Amma was standing in the hole but it was so deep that she couldn't be seen. All I could see was her shovel coming up and some dirt flying out. Some people nearby were wondering what Amma was doing digging these deep holes? Then Amma put something in the holes and filled them back in. Then I saw Amma sitting next to a wooden treasure chest that was sitting on the dirt on top of one of the holes that Amma dug. The treasure chest had metal braces on the corners and looked like one of those pirate treasure chests you see in the movies.

I got the feeling Amma was putting to rest and resolving some deep emotional issue in me. And the treasure was the insights that arises after some emotional issue is settled.

Sunday, October 16, 2016

Meeting My Dolphin Friend.

Dreamed that I was traveling with my younger brother Terry in a white pick up truck. He was driving and I was in the back. We went to a swimming pool and I got in the water. In the water was a dolphin who was a good friend of mine. I was very happy to see my dolphin friend and I gave him/her a kiss. Then I looked into the dolphin's eyes and I felt lots of love and compassion being radiated. Very nice. The dolphin's eyes were big and very dark.

Saturday, September 03, 2016

Cruzin' with the DL.

Dreamed that I was traveling with the Dalai Lama and some other people. We were driving in a car. The Dalai Lama was in the front passenger seat and I was sitting behind him. The Dalai Lama was radiating very sweet and compassionate vibes.

At one point the road was almost blocked by some big black outboard engines. The car was able to squeeze under one of the engines and continue on it's way. I guess when you're driving with the Dalai Lama you can get around all obstacles. :-) After we passed the engines I looked back and thought "Wow. That road is going to get really backed up with traffic."

Then the other people in the car said something like "OK, we got the Dalai Lama here so let's read some spiritual stuff." The DL told me to pick up and starting reading a dharma book that was in the back seat next to me. I flipped thru the pages and skimmed the content to see what to read.

Then we stopped at a beautiful meditation center that had some nice manicured gardens.

Monday, June 20, 2016

Amma at My Old House.

Dreamed that I was at my old house in Alexandria, Virginia. Amma was there and I was in charge of making sure she had everything she needed. I was feeling happy to have Amma in my house. She was wearing her usual bright white saree. At one point I was embarrassed cuz I had some intestinal gas, but Amma didn't seem to care. At another point I had to find some paper towels to make sure everyone had some. Later in the dream I got a delivery of a cardboard box with a big electronic item like a big screen TV. I remember opening the box next to my old front door.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Amma in Zoot Suit Pants and a Government Appointment

Dreamed I was at this large stadium seating hall. The seats angled up from the stage and most everything there was painted in white. We were waiting for Amma to arrive and I was with some other Amma devotees way up high near the back of the hall. Amma came to the stage and was standing next to the wooden podium. She was wearing baggy medium gray pleated trousers with silver chain belts and a button down light gray shirt. Amma had wide hips and was in a playful mood showing off her fancy pants to the big crowd. The pants reminded me of "Zoot Suit" pants that were once popular in America back in the 1940's and 50's I think. Amma seemed to be giving the message that she was going to become more engaged with worldly affairs.

Also someone was telling me that Amma had been appointed to the "Kerala Agricultural Commission" or something like that. I was a little surprised that Amma accepted an official position in the Kerala government.

Saturday, April 09, 2016

At My Old College Gazing Into Amma's Eyes.

Dreamed that I was at my old college Mary Washington College. Soon there was going to be a convocation speech at the main college outdoor pavilion. I was on a balcony looking down at all the chairs set up for the speech. Then Amma was there and I was just looking into her eyes for a long time. It felt wonderful! I felt lucky to be close to her and looking into her eyes. At one point Amma seemed to say "OK. That's enough of looking into my eyes." but I just kept looking. Amma was wearing her usual bright white saree.

At one point I was sitting on the edge of the balcony with my legs dangling down between the banister support pillars.

My sister (Teresa) was down below talking to one of the college professors. (Teresa also graduated from the same college.)

Also saw some guy enjoying a caramel ice cream cone.

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Amma Examines the Air Ducts, Then Kisses Cheeks.

Dreamed that 2 Indian men wanted to sell some aluminum air ducts to Amma. Amma was sitting with one of her red Swamis when the 2 Indian men came by. Amma took one of the air ducts and started looking at it to see if it was sufficient quality and was good enough to purchase. Amma was being very practical and down to earth. The Swami did not think Amma should spend time on the air ducts but he kept quiet. It was a sunny day.

I felt good seeing Amma being practical and carefully scrutinizing the air ducts.

Then the 2 Indian men turned into 2 cats. The cats were happy and were sniffing each other's butts (as cats sometimes like to do). Another female Amma devotee was with me (she was dressed in a white saree like Amma wears). I said to her "The two cats are sniffing each other's butts. That means they think Amma will purchase the air ducts and they're happy." I said this as a joke.

Then I started looking deeply into Amma's eyes and I became entranced. At first Amma's eyes were a light brown, then they morphed into different designs like colorful mandalas. I felt wonderful looking into her eyes! I had my left arm around the shoulders of the female devotee and I felt nice feelings of friendship. Then Amma leaned in and gave us a kiss on the cheeks. Wonderful!


Monday, January 04, 2016

Nice Hug and Holding Amma's Feet

Had a very nice Amma dream (this was my first Amma dream in a while). I was in this house with only a few other people there. Amma was there dressed in her usual bright white saree. She was sitting in a chair. I kneeled in front of her and touched her feet and she gave me a very sweet hug. I asked how about how I can get my mind to settle down and feel more relaxed. She gave me a nice answer that I can't remember. Then I held on to her feet some more.

Later Amma was standing up and hugging someone else. Then she said "OK, I gotta go." As she walked out her right leg was giving her some pain and she had to stretch it and shake it out.

I was feeling lots of love and appreciation in being so close to Amma.

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Amma Pulls Her Feet Away.

Dreamed that Amma was sitting in a sofa style chair and a Western lady was seated on Amma's right. They were seated right next to each other. Amma was dressed in her usual bright white saree. I was envious of the western lady sitting right next to Amma. I was sitting on the floor in front of them about 3 feet away. I looked at Amma's feet and as a sign of devotion I reached out to try and touch her feet. But Amma pulled her feet away like she didn't want me to touch them. Needless to say I felt sad. This was not a happy Amma dream. Yuck.

Friday, August 07, 2015

Opening the Door for Amma

Dreamed that I was in the main hallway on the top floor of a 5 story apartment flat building. The walls were a dull yellow color. I looked to my left to the far end of the hall and I saw some Amma Swamis there. The room door was open and Amma was about to come out. I went to the stairwell and opened the door for Amma. Then my deceased stepmother Marilyn walked thru dressed in a bright white saree and walked down the stairs. She was kind of floating as she walked. I was surprised to see her. She died about 2 years ago.

Then a few seconds later Amma walked thru dressed in her usual bright white saree. She looked very regal and in charge. I held the door to the stairwell open and Amma walked down the stairs. It felt good to be close to Amma for a few seconds. At the bottom of the landing were a lot of shoes and Amma had to carefully step over them. Someone complained to me about the shoes and I said there was no time to move them before Amma came.

Later I dreamed about a cute cat being lovey dovey and snuggling with a little baby. Cute! Just like a YouTube video.

Saturday, August 01, 2015

Amma Appearing as a Man in a Blue Shirt

Dreamed that I walked into a room that had Amma and a few other people. Amma said something like "I saw your picture and started crying." I replied with something like "That's all right Amma, many people cry when they see my picture." Then I was sitting on Amma's right side and we were talking. Amma was in the form of a man who was wearing a light blue shirt, light brown pants and had a husky, muscular build like an athlete, but I could totally feel that it was Amma. I was feeling very nice being next to her. Amma was asking me to get my father to come to the ashram and do some work. Amma was also asking me to check in on my work in the kitchen and I said "OK." My father was coming to see Amma but he could only visit for short times. I was happy that my Dad was getting connected with Amma.

Then I dreamed I was outdoors with Amma with some other people. We were on a concrete parking lot. I walked by Amma but my shoes were dirty and left some dirt marks on the ground. I got a rag and cleaned them up.

Sunday, June 07, 2015

Talking About My Throat with Amma and then Floating Away.

Dreamed that Amma, I and one younger guy walked into a room and Amma and I sat at a simple wooden table. Amma was wearing her usual bright white saree and she had an Afro hair style. I could see some grey in her hair. Amma asked me how I was doing and I replied "I think I've got an energy blockage in my throat. I think it's some kind of spiritual blockage." Amma replied "Yes, that's possible." Then I asked her "Do you see some kind of subtle energy blockage?" Amma looked at my throat and said "Yes, there may be one there." Amma was mostly speaking English but the younger guy translated once in a while. I was happy to be talking with Amma.

Then the dream shifted and I saw this short, thin, dark skinned man walk by me and give me a searching and slightly mischievous look. Then I floated up and floated into space. Then I floated down back into my body. I was very aware of coming back into my body like there was a small part of my consciousness remaining in my body while I was floating away.

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Kissing the Feet of Pope Francis.

Dreamed that I was in a living room with some other people and Pope Francis (he was dressed in pure white). We were all sitting on nice sofas and Pope Francis was sitting on a sofa opposite me. The other people were reporters asking him questions. At one point I felt the strong desire to get the darshan of Pope Frances so I stood up and bowed down to his feet. Then I kissed his right foot and was holding on to both his feet. I was feeling a lot of devotion just like the devotion I feel in some of my Amma dreams. Then I went back to my sofa and I started to cry a little bit with feelings of devotion to the Pope. Pope Francis was wearing soft light brown leather shoes with open toes and also wearing light brown warm socks.

Comment: "Darshan" is a Sanskrit word which means to receive the blessing of a holy person.

Saturday, May 23, 2015

Flying and Running Toward Ganesha.

Dreamed that I was flying over this rocky coastline and there was a thin strip of grayish sand between the rocks and the ocean. The ocean was pretty calm and the scene was kind of drab and drained of color. I was really enjoying the feeling of flying and I was thinking "Just breathe and relax and enjoy it and don't worry if you sink to the ground." I was about 500 feet in the air. Then I floated down to the ground onto the strip of sand. About 50 feet behind me was an elephant that was a greenish gray color. I got scared of the elephant and ran away. Then suddenly I thought to myself "Its better that I face my fear." Then I turned around (still feeling scared) and ran right to the elephant. When I got to the elephant I was holding one of its legs and saying "Ganesha, Ganesha." in a soothing way hoping that would keep it from hurting me.

Comment: Ganesha is one of the many gods of Hinduism. Ganesha has the body of a strong young man and the head of an elephant. Ganesha is considered the "remover of obstacles". Hindus pray and make offerings to him in order to have personal and business success.

Tuesday, May 12, 2015

Kissing the Hand of Amma / Neem Karoli Baba.

Dreamed that I was sitting on a sofa with Amma but she looked like Neem Karoli Baba (like it was both of them merged into one). I'll call this person A/NKB. I was sitting next to him/her on his/her right side. I was holding his/her right hand and kissing it and putting it on my face and head. I was feeling lots of wonderful devotion. The hand was like a man's hand; thick strong fingers and the skin was dark.

Then A/NKB asked me about this Indian lady who lived back in the 1880s. A/NKB said "She's coming here." I said "You're kidding. She would be 140 years old!" Then the Indian lady came in to the room and A/NKB asked me "Will you help buy the cake for her?" I said "Sure, why not?" I was thinking "Well, I better be generous when I'm around A/NKB." Then I pulled some money out of my wallet, gave it a little blessing, pressed it to my forehead and gave it to the Indian lady.

Monday, May 11, 2015

Amma in a Very Compassionate Mood.

Dreamed that somehow I was looking at Amma and I felt like I wanted to cry (I was feeling a lot of devotion). Amma came toward me. I was sitting down with my hands in prayer position. Amma had a beautiful sweet concerned expression full of compassion. I said "Amma, don't worry about me. I'll be fine. You're busy so please continue your work." Amma was in a very sweet and loving mood. There was more to the dream but I can't remember.

Monday, May 04, 2015

Feeling Ashamed About Asking to Ring the Bell for Amma

Dreamed that I was at Amma's ashram in a nice auditorium hall. I was sitting on the left side of the hall. The hall seated about 1,000 people with the chairs curved around the stage and rising up at about 30 degree angle. The hall had a lot of nice wood paneling. Before Amma came out I went to the stage and told one of the ladies that Amma usually lets me ring the bell. The lady got a little angry with me and said something like "What are you talking about? We already have someone who will ring the bell." I felt very embarrassed and ashamed and went back to my chair. Then Amma came on to the stage wearing her usual bright white saree. I got the feeling that the lady told Amma that I asked to ring the bell. Then I got the feeling that later on Amma was going to tell the whole audience about me asking to ring the bell. I felt very nervous and ashamed so I left the auditorium and took an elevator upstairs to get some food (a few slices of brown bread). Soon I got lost in the building. At one point I was in the elevator with two young guys in black hoodies with some kind of grey designs on them. One of the guys said "We're with Feurenzin." I said "Cool, what's that?" He explained it was a heavy metal music festival for gay men. I thought "Wow, that's kind of cool. I've never heard of anything like that." One of the guys was really tall, about 6 feet 9 inches or so. He said the ashram is not a good place for the festival so they'll have to move it somewhere else. I agreed that heavy metal concerts and Amma's ashram are not a good mix.

Comment: "Forenzen" is the Dutch word for "commuter" and "Feuerwanzen" is the German word for a type of small red insect called a "fire bug".

Saturday, May 02, 2015

Amma Disappeared.

Dreamed I was in a small living room and we were going to get Amma darshan. There were only a few people there and I was thinking "Wow. This is great to be in a small group with Amma." Amma was sitting in the front of the room in a sofa chair in her usual bright white saree. I went up to Amma, got down on my knees and bowed my head at her feet. In that moment Amma totally disappeared! I was quite surprised. I was looking around but she was really gone.

Later in the dream I was in someone's kitchen and there was a mother cat and some adorable cute kittens in a plastic mesh container. They were friendly and I had a nice time petting them. I love cats.

Amma Telling Everyone About My Bad Qualities.

Dreamed that French Vishakh and I were both sitting in meditation posture on a very comfortable sofa. Vishakh was on my right and the sofa was a brown and leafy green color with some small white patches here and there and little bits of color mixed in. On our right side on the opposite side of the big room we saw Amma arrive in a yellow truck with 2 Indian men in the front seat with her. She got out and went right inside quickly so no one could bother her.

Then Amma was in front of the room sitting on a sofa chair in her usual white saree. I touched the floor to show respect to Amma. On Vishakh's right was the opening to the main hall where lots of other people were seated (Vishakh and I were in a smaller room). It felt nice to be close to Amma, but her face looked quite different than usual. Then she started to talk about me and tell everyone about all my bad qualities and what a mess I was. I felt really embarrassed! A small part of me was thinking "Well, if Amma is doing this there must be some good reason."

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Amma Puts Yellow Chalk On My Feet

Dreamed that some friends and I were standing in a line while Amma was walking by. We were standing side by side. Then Amma came in front of me and leaned down and started to paint my feet with yellow chalk. I was surprised and very honored! I brought my hands together in namaste while looking down at Amma coloring my feet with the piece of yellow chalk. I also felt a little nervous that people would think that I felt special because of this. Afterwards a friend and I were walking around and I saw that Amma had written a message on the inside of my right foot. It said something like "Don't sell what you can give away." I don't remember exactly. I was still feeling very honored about Amma putting the yellow chalk on my feet.

Comment: I had this dream at a hotel in the Indian town of Manjeri in central Kerala. I traveled up here yesterday in order to attend a special event that Amma will lead today. She'll be inaugurating a new Brahmastanam temple here.

Thursday, March 05, 2015

4am Meeting and the Chocolate Line.

Dreamed that I and some other people were sitting on the floor close to Amma. Amma was in her usual bright white saree giving darshan to people. I was sitting in meditation posture a little bit on Amma's left about 5 feet from her. The guy on my right was wearing grey and white striped pants and a dark red shirt. It was about midnight and Amma said that she had to finish up before 4am so she could go to a meeting at 4am. Amma said "Even kids in the chocolate line are asking questions so please no more questions." (The "chocolate line" was like a line for people new to Amma.) Amma wanted to make sure she hugged everyone before she had to leave for her meeting. One guy (Priyan, a Lebanese guy) was ahead of me getting his hug and he whispered something in Spanish into Amma's left ear. Amma then said "Muy." which means "very". I asked the guy in the red shirt if he was going to get a hug and he said "No, I'll just stay here and meditate." I was just getting up for my hug when my alarm rang.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Compost Group Meeting with Amma.

Dreamed that me and some of the other guys who work at Compost were all doing seva. Then Amma came to the building that was near us (a big building about 10 stories high). Me and the Compost guys got some tea and cookies and went up to the 10th floor and sat in a brightly lit room with Amma in front. There were about 8 of us. I was sitting on Amma's left hand side and next to me on my right was a white sofa. At one point I put my cookie on the sofa. I was sitting on a meditation cushion in my usual meditation posture. I could really feel and taste the cookie.

Amma was talking to the person behind me and speaking in different languages to different people. She spoke English, French, Spanish, etc. I was impressed that she knew so many languages. As I was gazing at Amma I was feeling lots of love and devotion and I felt a little like crying. It felt great. I felt Amma radiating lots of love. At one point Amma was thinking out loud and saying "Am I really enlightened? I don't know. All I know is that my heart is filled with love." Then Amma got up to go to her next program. At this point Amma looked like a tall thin western lady in dark blue clothes.


Friday, February 06, 2015

Two Spiritual Beings Come to Earth.

Dreamed that these two very high spiritual beings came to Earth. I had the job of taking them to different places. At one point we went to a recreation area where people where playing different games. Then the beings were two young ladies talking about the work they needed to do to help heal the Earth. I felt a strong connection to them and I was fascinated just looking at them; they were radiating a lot of spiritual power. When they spoke they had a very soft voice. I remember them wearing light blue shirts.

Tuesday, February 03, 2015

Amma Walking in Circles and Chocolate Milkshakes.

Dreamed that I was with a group of people and we had the job of preparing some beverages like tea and milkshakes for some big event. Earlier Amma asked me to do this. Then Amma came into the room and asked us if we were ready to do the work. Me and some of the other people helping out were sitting on two sofas that where facing each other. Then Amma (wearing a blue shirt) starts walking in a clockwise direction around our two sofas. Then Amma says to me "Ok, Advait. Are you ready?" I said "Yes. We're going to use chocolate because we have the most of that." Amma nodded and says "Yes, that should be OK." Amma kept asking me questions to make sure I would make the beverages correctly. Then Amma started walking faster and faster around the two sofas that we were sitting on. I was thinking "Wow, Amma is walking around me. I should be walking around her because she is my guru." I kept turning around so I could see Amma while she walked. Then Amma stopped walking, opened the door and walked out. Near the two sofas was a machine that made strawberry, vanilla and chocolate milkshakes. I was told that the chocolate milkshake had the most nutrition.

Comment: I'm not sure which is better; dreaming about Amma or dreaming about chocolate... :-)

Friday, January 09, 2015

Amma Fire Walk and Marriage Premonition.

Dreamed that Vishakh and I were kind of sleepy and we were laying down. (Vishakh is a friend of mine here at Amritapuri; we both work in the waste management dept.) Vishakh was telling me about how Amma went to a Fire Walk. They asked Amma to walk over the hot coals and Amma said "No, no. That's not for me." Then Amma said "OK, ok, I'll walk over the coals." I could see Amma from behind standing in the darkness with the hot coals spread out on the ground in front of her. It felt like she was in a dark forest at night. Amma was dressed in her usual white saree. I then got the feeling Amma was praying to Agni (the god of fire in Hindu mythology). I was having a hard time staying awake listening to Vishakh telling this story. Finally he went to bed. Then I felt something touch the inside of my elbows and a voice said "You will get married soon." This created a feeling a fear and a buzzing in my body. I woke up afraid that someone was in the room. I wanted to ask Vishakh how the story ended but he was asleep and I didn't want to wake him up. I never did see Amma walk over the coals.

Comment: A Fire Walk is an event where they spread some hot coals on the ground and people walk over it in order to overcome fear and have spiritual transformations. They were popular in the 1990's.

Friday, December 12, 2014

Semi-Lucid Dream and Calling for Amma.

Had lots of lucid and semi-lucid dreaming this morning. At one point I dreamed I was floating around at a place where lots of stuff was happening. Then I floated to the floor (brownish carpet) and I started to chant "Amma, Amma." Then a couple of really friendly dogs came and we started playing. We were having a good time and I was smiling and happy. Then the lucid dream started again phase 2: I said "Amma, Amma." again and then some kids came and we started to play and have fun. I was floating around and really enjoying the feeling of floating (usually in my semi-lucid dreams I'll be floating around). One of the kids started to tickle my feet and I was laughing and laughing. It would be great if I could remember to call out "Amma, Amma." in all my dreams.

(Comment: This is the first pleasant dream I've had in a while. For a while most of my remembered dreams have been dark and emotionally unpleasant.)

Friday, October 17, 2014

Amma Holding Baby.

Dreamed that I was at this Amma program and she was giving darshan upstairs. For some reason I hesitated for a little bit then I ran upstairs to get my darshan hug. When I got to the top of the stairs I took off my shoes. Then I looked around I saw that Amma and everyone had left. I could see Amma's chair draped in white with flowers around it. I was disappointed. Then I saw Amma walking down the stairs holding a baby. Then Amma came back upstairs and made some requests. The westerners nearby said "Yes, Amma. Right away." Amma requested some food but not too much. I was envious of the westerners who could speak Malayalam (Amma's native language).

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Helping Amma with Paperwork.

Dreamed that I was with Amma in her large main office. Amma was sitting behind her large wooden desk and I was sitting opposite helping her with some paperwork. Amma was filling out forms and wearing her usual bright white saree. Amma was in a quiet happy mood. At one point Amma gave me some cash and told me to go downstairs and get some change. As I was walking out of her office I looked back at Amma and I was feeling lots of love for her and appreciation for the chance to work directly with her. I then turned to my right and then turned right again to a big wide staircase that had dark green carpet. I kind of floated down the stairs which was fun. At the bottom of the stairs I turned left and left again. I went thru the door to another office area with people working at their desks doing clerical work. I noticed some pictures of Jesus on the walls. One guy was at his desk eating a big lunch.

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Amma Floating on a Big Wave.

Dreamed that we were at an Amma program on the beach. Then a big wave came in and caused some chaos and confusion. Then I saw Amma floating on her back on top of one of the big waves. Amma was very calm and peaceful. Most people there saw this and said "Fine, that's OK." One person said "No. Amma should come down from the wave and make some decisions about what we should do." Then I was out in the water with lots of big waves moving around me, but I was trusting that I would be OK. Then a big wave came in and washed me ashore. Then I was walking through a big city where there were lots of explosions and chaos. I said to myself "Wow, lots of leelas (dramas) happening here."

Tuesday, August 05, 2014

Adarsh Gives Pada Puja to Amma, Then Cute Kittens.

Dreamed that I was at this Amma program. I and about 200 other Amma devotees (all dressed in white) were sitting outside on the grass. Some places didn't have grass; just bare red dirt. It was a nice sunny day with a nice blue sky. Then someone said "OK, Amma is coming out now." Then Amma came out and walked toward the group. Then the tall Dutch guy Adarsh was standing in front of Amma. He held up his hands together and some water dripped out onto Amma's feet. He was doing pada puja to Amma (ritual devotional washing of the guru's feet). Then Amma took some of the water into her own hands. Then she went and sat on her peetham (raised platform) in front of all the devotees. At first I was sitting farther back in the crowd but I got up and moved closer. I was sitting on Amma's right side. I could see Amma pretty well; nice. I had to adjust my left leg so I wasn't touching the guy in front of me. Then a western guy stood up and introduced Amma by singing a short funny song. Then near the guy we all saw 2 cute adorable little kittens. Amma was in a good mood; smiling and gazing at everyone there.

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Amma In Red, Falls Over Backwards.

Dreamed that I was at a table sitting near Amma. Other people were there eating their meals. I was about 3 or 4 chairs away from Amma and enjoying the peace of sitting in her presence. People were coming and going. I discovered that my cup was missing so I walked behind Amma to the kitchen to get another one.

In another part of the dream Amma was sitting on cushion on a big stage in front of a large audience. She was dressed in a bright red Devi Bhava outfit and had a red turban on her head. Her saree and turban had lots of little gold ornaments. There was no one else on stage and I was floating above the audience looking at Amma from her right hand side. The floor of the stage was made from a light colored wood. Amma was sitting on her cushion and energetically doing the "Matarani Ki Jai!" that she usually does at the end of bhajans. She throws up her arms and shouts "Matarani Ki!" And then everyone in the audience throws up their hands and shouts "Jai!" This was happening and then Amma got so energetic that she fell over backwards! Everyone was surprised! Some western white haired lady rushed to Amma and helped get her back to sitting on her cushion. Amma was just laughing at the whole thing; she thought is was hilarious. She then put her red turban back on her head. Then the western lady behind Amma started massaging her back and shoulders and was hugging Amma from behind. It was nice to see Amma get a hug... :-)

Friday, July 25, 2014

In A Meeting Room, Staring Into Amma's Eyes.

Dreamed that I was alone in this meeting room with Amma. I was asking her questions. At one point she came closer was just looking at me. Her eyes were so beautiful and loving that I felt like crying. Then Amma moved away and I felt guilty because I couldn't maintain contact with her eyes. I wish I could remember what Amma and I were talking about.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Amma and Meeting About New Physics.

Dreamed that me and some other people were in a meeting conference room with a big square conference table in the middle. The wood was light colored. Amma was there and we were talking about doing some research. The research involved the physics of a starship drive engine that used new unknown physics beyond today's standard physics. At one point Amma was leaving the room. She was just walking thru the door when I jumped up toward Amma and asked, "Amma! Is it OK to ask a question?" I then asked, "Amma, will the science you're looking for involve principles beyond standard physics?" Amma then walked back into the room and sat in a chair and just looked at me. I was just feeling her powerful presence. I noticed that my legs were sticking out with the soles of my feet pointed toward Amma. Not good. I tucked my feet back in to correct my mistake. (In Asian cultures its impolite to point the soles of your feet to another person.) Amma's skin was very dark and she was radiating a fierce strong feeling. She didn't respond to my question but her silence seemed to answer "Yes" to my question. I was really enjoying being in her presence. There were about 10 other people in the room.

Saturday, May 10, 2014

Amma Holding Me.

Dreamed that I was talking to someone and Amma came up and put her right arm around me so that her right shoulder was against my right shoulder. Her right arm went over my belly to my left side. Amma's head rested on my right shoulder. I started to cry because of my frustration of being trapped in my ego. Felt good to cry. Amma was dressed in her usual white saree.

Wednesday, May 07, 2014

Flying to Amma and then Witnessing Chaos.

Dreamed I was in this big house and I wanted to get outside so I could go flying thru the sky. I was upstairs walking thru a large room filled with lots of cardboard boxes. The I saw a door on my right side. I went thru the door and was standing on a high small balcony overlooking a courtyard and other stone buildings. I wanted to jump off and go flying and for a split second I was scared of jumping but I ignored the fear, immediately jumped and started flying. At first I floated to the ground. While on the ground I reached my arms up and strongly desired to go flying again. I then flew way way up high! Cool! I was about a mile up in the air flying around looking down at the ground. The ground was covered with solid green forest with some large rivers and lakes. I spent some time flying around and really enjoying the view and the floating feeling.

Then I floated down to a riverbank and Amma was there. I was with Amma for some time gazing at her lovingly and then we were holding each other and feeling the bliss being close to each other. Very nice! Amma had very dark skin.

Then the dream shifted and I was in this place with chaotic things happening like fireworks explosions and people running around in a chaotic way. I was feeling disappointed about being away from Amma and the wonderful flying experience. But I thought to myself "OK, let me just be with this. Let me see all this chaos as just the Divine Will of the Supreme Consciousness." I was feeling anxious but another part of me was just witnessing the chaos.

Monday, April 14, 2014

With Amma in a Hospital with Tasty Snacks.

Dreamed that I was with Amma and a group of people as Amma was touring a hospital. At one point I saw a sign that showed "gifts from Amma". Amma closed her eyes and she was wearing a light blue hospital gown over her usual white saree. The person behind Amma said "This is a little something from Amma to all her children in honor of this hospital." Amma opened her eyes and saw that there were M&M candies and other treats in the little gift bag. Amma then said "Wait a minute; Amma would never give away M&Ms." but Amma was smiling and having fun as she said this. Then me and another person took some M&Ms from the bag and we also saw some Cheetos snacks in the bag. I was thinking "OK, I'm gonna come back and get me some of those Cheetos." Amma was in a happy joyful mood. Also Amma was touring other parts of the hospital and there were lots of people there. I was also thinking to myself "Wow. Amma is speaking perfect English. Pretty cool."

Earlier in the dream I remember traveling through a city with lots of tall cool looking buildngs like a future Tokyo or New York. I saw the original World Trade Center buildings also. We were on our way to the hospital to meet Amma.

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Touching Amma's Feet with Pink Cloth.

Dreamed I was at this Amrita University campus building with lots of big halls and corridors. I was impressed with how big the rooms were. I was telling Br. Gurudas how to create energy from the waste at the school. Then I was standing near some tables with white cloths that had items for sale. I saw Amma standing nearby and I wanted to get something for her. On the table I saw a pink cloth that was in the shape of a foot. The cloth was kind of firm and held its shape like a piece of plastic. As I bent down to touch Amma's feet with the pink cloth Amma said "Be careful, my feet are still sore." It seemed she had some recent injury to her feet. Amma was wearing white socks but they looked dark like her feet where in shadows. I very gently touched her feet with the pink cloth. I was feeling lots of devotion at this point. Amma said "With my injured feet I can't really dance." I asked "Are you dancing inside?" Amma replied "Of course, I'm always dancing inside." Then I shrugged and looked at Amma with an expression that said "Well, there it is. You're always dancing inside so you don't need to worry about your injured feet." (Yes, I know, this sounds totally arrogant of me (or rather of my dream self). :-) )

At another point in the dream Amma invited Sri Sri Ravi Shankar to come and give a talk. (Ravi is a very popular guru in India and around the world.) Ravi came and sat up on a high chair and gave a talk. I remember seeing his face with a very nice smile. He seemed to be pretty enlightened.

(Comments: * Br. Gurudas is an Indian man who lives at the ashram and helps me to organize the worm compost work. * "Amrita University" is the name of Amma's 5 campus university system in south India.)

Monday, February 24, 2014

Snoozing with Elephant and Amma in Yellow Hat

Dreamed that I was hanging around this large gentle elephant. At one point the elephant laid down on its right side and I laid down next to its big belly. I laid down on my right side and rested my head on one of the front legs of the elephant with my back against its belly. Me and the elephant both wanted to take a little snooze. It felt nice to feel safe right next to such a big animal.

(Comment: At the ashram in India where I live they sometimes have 2 elephants visit. They're considered to be "Amma's elephants".)

Then I dreamed I was with Amma and she was happily wearing and showing off a new yellow hat. It was a simple hat light yellow in color. Then Amma wanted to wear one of her older yellow hats. I got the old hat off the wall and gave it to Amma. It had sentimental value for Amma and she wanted to save it. Amma wore this hat when she was younger and it had special meaning for her. Amma was in a good mood smiling and laughing showing off her hat.

Earlier in the dream I entered a big hall shortly before Amma entered from another door. Amma walked into the hall and I was looking at her right side as she walked by. There were lots of other devotees around. I bowed down to Amma but I was feeling kind of sheepish because I wasn't doing as much work as the other devotees. I remember wearing a backpack.

Friday, January 31, 2014

Amma, Film Crew and Lace Cloth.

Dreamed that Amma was walking around outside and there was also a film crew there filming something. Amma was in her usual white saree. Amma said something like "Hey, Advait, I want you to be in this film." I said "Sure, Amma." I was trying to play it cool. At one point I was close to Amma helping to get things ready for the filming. Then I looked at Amma and some tears came out of my eyes and I was feeling a lot of devotion. I was trying to hide my tears so no one else could see them. There were some important western people nearby sitting on a bench to my left. Then I asked Amma what I should be doing. Amma said "I want you to hold this lace." and I saw a piece of fine lace cloth kind of pinkish in color. The lace had some kind of historical significance.

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Satya Sai Baba and Yellow Rain Jackets.

Dreamed that I was with a group of Amrita students ("Amrita" is the general name for Amma's 5 campus university). It had rained and the students were all wearing bright yellow rain jackets and rain pants and they were cleaning up the trash from this big field. The trash looked yellow and white. I had my rain gear but I was reluctant to put it on cause I don't like to wear extra layers of clothes in the hot Indian climate where I live (I live at Amma's large ashram in Kerala which is in the far south of India). A part of me wanted to put on the rain jacket so I wouldn't look too different from all the other students.

I was supposed to meet Satya Sai Baba at a certain time of the morning. I walked into a building next to the field that was being cleaned and then I saw Sai Baba walking in from another room. It seemed he was also wearing yellow. I bowed and felt a little bit of awe being in his presence. The I told him there's a whole group of Amrita students doing seva cleaning up the field and I thought it would be cool for Sai Baba to meet them. Sai Baba came out and looked at all the students working. The students stopped their work and gave a respectful bow to Sai Baba. Sai Baba was just looking at them quietly. I got the feeling he was giving them some kind of blessing.

Earlier in the dream I remember that I was walking behind Adam Friend and his wife Supriya (they're both Amma devotees who spend a lot of time at the ashram here).

(This is the first "spiritual" dream I've remembered in a long time.)

Friday, October 11, 2013

Sleeping in Same Room with Amma.

Dreamed that Amma and I were sleeping in the same room and we got up and Amma was there. I went to a silver sink to rinse my hands. Amma said "OK, I have to go." It felt like we were in Italy. Then, in another part of the dream I was feeling kind of tired and sleepy and we were in a big crowd and somehow I was sitting next to Amma or waiting for Amma. I had my hands in my pockets and I was wearing a yellow robe which was unusual. In another part of the dream I saw a sign that said "This area is only for senior staff members of the Amma tour." so I couldn't go there. I remember standing outside a building waiting for Amma and I was feeling bored and tired and I just wanted to go lay down and do something else. I remember seeing some people dressed in yellow.

(Comment: This was a pretty jumbled and incoherent dream with no clear narrative.)

Monday, October 07, 2013

Amma Tells Me to Get a Picture

Dreamed that I was having a meal at a table with a bright white tablecloth. I think I was eating alone and then Amma came to the table (she was dressed in her usual bright white saree). Amma was seated on my right hand side and I was thinking "Wow! How wonderful to be alone with Amma!" Amma's mood seemed a little bit serious. Then Amma told me I could have a certain picture that's on her wall that showed Amma either walking or sitting; I can't remember. I got a blue ink pen and was writing the details on a paper napkin. The pen was tearing the napkin a little. I was trying to act natural and relaxed around Amma. Then Amma left. As I was leaving I saw Adam Friend (he's another guy who lives here at the ashram). Adam said "Make sure and put on your good white clothes before you go get the picture." And I replied "Yes, of course. I plan to do that."

Then I started dreaming about trying to find my smartphone so I could record the dream. The smartphone screen was showing different movies and games and I was having a hard time getting it into voice record mode. At one point it started playing an X-rated movie; just shows you where my priorities are... :-)  I finally woke up and recorded the dream.

Comment: Adam Friend has appeared in one or two of my previous Amma dreams.

Saturday, October 05, 2013

Amma Asks Me To Grow Vegetables

Dreamed that I was with Amma and some other people. Amma asked me to grow some vegetables like spinach and cabbage and other things. I asked her if I should also grow some panikurka (an ayurvedic herb that grows wild here in Kerala). Amma said that would also be OK. Amma was wearing her usual white saree and she was busy with some other tasks as she was talking to me. She was moving some items around in a closet.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Having Meal with Amma

Dreamed that Amma and I were sitting at a dining room table have a meal. No one else was around. I felt very honored to have time alone with Amma. I was on Amma's left hand side and she was wearing her usual white saree.

Sunday, September 08, 2013

Amma and Yoga Demonstration

Dreamed that I was in an auditorium and Amma was going to give a program soon. Some guy near me named "Martin" was talking too loudly. Then the stage door slid open to reveal Amma dressed in her usual white sari sitting on the right side of the stage. Then this western woman (WW) with dirty blonde curly hair was sitting on stage facing the audience in meditation posture on Amma's right hand side. WW was dressed in black tight stretch yoga pants and a light blue t-shirt. WW was speaking about how she would go into samadhi and meditative trances while doing yoga. Then WW demonstrated some yoga poses like the Downward Dog (DD) and Cobra poses. During one of the DD poses I saw that WW no longer was wearing her shirt. She had small breasts and I was looking at her right side in profile.

Then somehow I was sitting on the stage near Amma facing Amma. It felt very nice to be close to Amma. The WW was still talking and demonstrating yoga poses. Then I was also doing the DD pose and Amma was looking at us both. Then the stage door slid open again. Then Amma asked me "Who was that guy talking silly back in the audience?" I said "I think it was Martin." Then the WW sat close to Amma and started speaking in Malayalam (Amma's native language). I was surprised that WW could speak Malayalam. It felt very nice to be close to Amma.

Saturday, July 20, 2013

Gazing At Amma While She Radiates Love

Dreamed that Amma was coming back to the ashram and there was a lot of construction going on. At one point I saw them tearing down the "B" building. The wall that they were tearing down was bright blue cinder block. Then I was resting and relaxing in an easy chair next to Amma's new office. Then Amma (dressed in white) came in and sat at her desk and a brahmacharini (female disciple) handed Amma some reports on electricity usage at the ashram. I was still relaxing in the easy chair on Amma's right hand side. I had a blanket over me. I was delighted to look at Amma's face as she looked at the reports and interacted with the brahmacharini. Amma was radiating pure love and bliss as usual. I kept repeating to myself "Just an unending river of love." as I was gazing at Amma's face. I had a wonderful feeling inside. I tried not to look at Amma too much cause I was a little afraid they would find me and make me leave. At one point Amma glanced at me briefly. A very nice dream.

Commentary: Today I moved into my new (supposedly permanent) room here at the ashram. Hopefully I won't need to move any more. The room is very close to the center of the ashram which is very nice.

Monday, June 24, 2013

Link to Other Amma Dreams

http://e.amritapuri.org/blogs/2008/787/

Here's a link to some Amma dreams by other devotees. I enjoyed reading them.

No Darshan, but Massage from Amma

Dreamed that I was in line with some devotees to get Amma darshan. I was last in line and there were about 10 people in front of me. I saw all of them getting very nice darshans. Then it was my turn and I was kneeling in front of Amma but Amma just ignored me and didn't give me darshan. I felt embarrassed because the other people were watching. Then I sat down in meditation posture in front of Amma facing away from her. I was sitting on her left side and Amma was behind my back sitting on a raised platform. Then I just started to do my usual silent meditation. And then Amma (still sitting behind me) started rubbing and massaging my shoulders, arms and head. Wow! This was great. It was unexpected and I was delightfully surprised. Then Amma came down and sat in front of me and started gently pulling my arms as though she was giving me some kind of bodywork to remove muscle tension. It was wonderful! Amma was speaking to me but I don't remember what she said. As she was finishing the massage, Amma said she wanted me to work on this other project; something to do with environmental health.

Monday, May 20, 2013

Amma Says She Will Save Us

Dreamed that I was at an Amma event and we were getting prepared for Amma's arrival. Someone asked me "Why is everyone working all night?" I replied "We're getting ready for Amma's program." Then I remember putting on my headphones and choosing some music to listen to while I worked. Then I was at a concert where some man was playing violin and another was singing. The concert was not that interesting, but I clapped anyway. Then I was in a room with about 15 other people and we were sitting on sofas arranged in a circle. It was like a large living room. Then Amma came in and started looking at the reports from the various people responsible for different departments. Amma was to my left. Then Amma said "OK, everyone. Now hold hands." We then held hands in a circle. I imagined some spiritual energy flowing around the circle. Then Amma intoned

    "I don't know how. I don't know when. But before I die, I will save you."

Amma said this like she was reciting a profound sacred poem or verse. I felt Amma was saying that at the right time her grace will take us to the goal of awakening, and we have to support each other and work together with heart-felt harmony. Also I felt that Amma was more concerned about our spiritual progress than the reports and our outer work.

As usual, it was nice to be with Amma, but I wasn't feeling much devotion like I did in most of my earlier Amma dreams. I do miss that and hope it comes back.




Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Going to Talk to Amma

Dreamed that I was in this old style house with dark wood and traditional furniture. I wanted to tell something to Amma so I went to her room and knocked on the door. Amma was resting on a sofa or bed and I knelt down beside the bed and held her hands and talked to her about some problems I was having. Then Amma woke up fully and I talked to her some more, It felt very nice to be near her. Then I got up and left the room. For some reason I was feeling frustrated and I closed the door loudly behind me. Then I immediately felt guilty for doing that but I got the feeling that Amma didn't mind.

Friday, March 08, 2013

Amma in Classroom.

Dreamed that I was in this retreat center classroom with about 15 other people. Amma was in the front of the room answering questions. She was dressed in her usual bright white saree and standing on the right side of the room. She was radiating a wonderful presence filled with love and peace. At one point someone said "When Amma talks about these things its kind of tasteless." It was like this person was insulting Amma. Everyone else in the room was really surprised and we all felt uncomfortable. But Amma didn't mind at all and just continued speaking. Then the class was over and I was collecting my stuff getting ready to leave (for some reason I was having a hard time getting all my stuff). I saw Amma standing alone and I wanted to go to her and perhaps get a hug. Then the dream shifted and I was walking down a large corridor with a little song playing in my head. The lyrics to the song were "I got to get up. Wake up. Get me a hug." It was a nice little melody.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Amma Giving Aromatic Sticks

Dreamed that I was sitting on a sofa in a living room. On my left was another sofa where Amma was sitting. Sitting next to Amma was an organizer of one of the Amma satsangs in USA. Amma gave him a large bunch of light grey sticks, and then she gave me just a few sticks. I asked Amma "How much are these sticks worth?" Amma very clearly replied "$10,150." The sticks represented money and we were supposed to use the money to support some of Amma's charitable activities. The sticks had a nice smell.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

With Amma and Amma's 2nd in Command

Dreamed that I was at this house and Amma was there; it was a suburban house. The guy who owned the house seemed like he was high up in the Amma organization. At one point Amma asked me to come walking with her and the other people would catch up. For a little while it was just Amma and I walking outside the house and talking. Amma was dressed in her usual bright white saree. Amma asked me about my artwork and she wanted to see some of it. At one point I was looking at Amma's face (which is always wonderful to gaze at!). I didn't want to stare too much for fear it would make Amma uncomfortable. I showed Amma some of my paintings but they weren't very good and I didn't feel comfortable showing them to Amma. Then I was with the guy who was 2nd in charge of the Amma organization (it seemed like he was an American dressed in a casual western suit). Some other people were visiting the home and one other important guy showed up. I was supposed to attend a meeting where they were going to discuss some important issues about Amma's organizations. Then Amma was walking with some other people while I was with the 2nd in charge guy. I was thinking that I wanted to be with Amma instead of this guy. At one point I saw Amma wrapped in a blanket.

Comment: Years ago I used to do some painting and drawing. I wasn't very skilled but I enjoyed doing it. It was my main hobby for a few years.

Comment: Later that day after this dream occurred, Amma came to beach satsang wearing a white jacket. Apparently Amma was having a little cold or flu or something like that. Perhaps seeing Amma wearing a blanket in the dream was a little premonition.

Comment: I was in a sour mood the evening before this dream and I think the dream reflects my mood. It was nice to be with Amma but I wasn't feeling the strong devotion like in many earlier Amma dreams.

Monday, November 26, 2012

In Helicopter with Amma

Dreamed that I was at a city in America and I had to take a short trip somewhere nearby. Me and two other people got into a helicopter and Amma was the pilot. She was wearing brownish-gray colored western clothes. As the helicopter flew along I looked down and could see lots of parks and open green space in the city. But I also felt that lots of people in the city were poor and struggling to make a living. Usually I feel lots of devotion when I'm near Amma but this time I wasn't feeling it so much.

At one point it looked like Amma was going to fly into some trees near a building. We all told Amma to watch out and be careful and not to fly into the trees. We told her she had to fly higher and keep going. It was like Amma was not an experienced helicopter pilot or didn't quite know where we were going. In my mind I was joking that Amma is an amazing avatar but not necessarily a good helicopter pilot or good at following directions.

Then we all got to a building (like an office building) and we walked with Amma thru the hallways. At one point I was walking ahead of Amma. Then I stopped to let her get in front of me. As she walked by I wanted to reach out and touch her shoulder but I didn't cause I didn't want to bother her. Then I felt some devotional feelings come up.

Thursday, November 01, 2012

Amma Talking to Storm Troopers

Dreamed that I was traveling with Amma. When she got in the car at the beginning of the trip, she looked youthful in her white saree. We arrived at the destination and when she got out of the car she looked older and ill. She was using a walker and many of her teeth were missing. But I could feel that she was still blissful and peaceful inside.

We arrived at some kind of military base and I saw people busily working to get it cleaned up for Amma. Later I was walking in a hall and saw a sign that read, "Amma. General." which meant that Amma was the top boss of the base. Then I saw Amma strong and confident and healthy and walking normally again. She had healed whatever problem had afflicted her earlier.

Then I saw Amma giving a talk to a room full of Star Wars Storm Troopers. Their white armor uniforms were in bags strapped to their backs. There were too many Storm Troopers and I think Amma was telling them about how their numbers needed to get reduced and what they could do after being a Storm Trooper. (I wonder how "Storm Trooper" looks on a resume?)

Then a small group of us with Amma walked into this really, really big room with tall stone pillars, a very high roof and a beautiful expansive white marble floor. I did the first thing I always do when I see a floor like that which is to start skating. My shoes were still on and I started skating on the floor just like it was ice and I was wearing ice skates (but I was wearing regular shoes, or I may have been just in socks; can't quite remember). I saw some other man also skating like me but his shoes did have ice skate blades. I tried to see how fast I could go! It was a lot of fun and I was amazed at how big the room was. It seemed there were some big windows and lots of nice light was coming in making it brightly lit. I love the feeling of skating.

Comment: I have skating dreams all the time; they're very common and always lots of fun. One day I'd like to figure out what they mean.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Amma at Playground

Dreamed that me and some other people were casually hanging around Amma at a playground. All I wanted to do was to look in Amma's eyes. I was feeling lots of devotion for Amma and yearning to be close to her. We were sitting at a picnic table and Amma was standing nearby wearing a white saree. I wanted to just look at her but I also didn't want to make her feel uncomfortable with my stare. Then we were walking around and I was imagining how nice it would be if Amma put her arm in mine.

Comment: Earlier that night I woke up with a painful headache over my right eye. It hurt pretty bad. I mentally asked Amma if she could take it away just enough so I could get back to sleep. I also took an aspirin and was finally able to get back to sleep.

Friday, September 21, 2012

Amma Walking By and Giving Hand Darshan

Dreamed that I was on an errand to get something heavy. For some reason I was walking with my eyes closed. At one point, even with my eyes closed, I sensed Amma nearby walking to her darshan program. In my mind's eye I saw Amma. Amma gave me a nice hand darshan (or perhaps a kiss on the cheek, I can't remember). Then Amma continued walking away to the program. For some reason I didn't want to open my eyes. At that point I was looking for something more lightweight to carry.

Comment: This is a hazy, fuzzy dream. I don't remember it that clearly. I mainly remember the wonderful feeling of Amma giving me a quick but very nice darshan as she walked by.

Thursday, September 06, 2012

Amma says, "Get enough sleep."

Dreamed that I walked into a room and I saw Amma sitting in a chair. I asked Amma if I should try and get less sleep. Amma replied in a clear voice, "No, you need to get enough sleep. If you don't you may get injured." As Amma replied she was rubbing her left hand over her chest in a circular motion. It was nice to be with Amma, but I wasn't feeling the kind of strong devotion I feel in many of my Amma dreams.

Comment: I have a mild heart condition that is helped by getting enough sleep. If someone with my condition doesn't get enough sleep, their heart experiences more stress which can slowly make the problem worse over time.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Amma Says, "Call the President!"

Dreamed that I somehow ended up in a living room with Amma and one other person. The room had easy chairs and a couch like a normal western living room. Amma and the person were talking about some project where Amma wanted to model a village or something like that. Then Amma picked up the phone and said something like, "Call the President and tell him we want to change the color of a village." When I first came in the room I sat on the floor between a glass topped coffee table and the couch. I wanted to be inconspicuous so I could just gaze at Amma. Amma was seated in an easy chair on my left and the other person was on my right. Then I thought, "Well, I look kind of silly sitting here on the floor." Then I got up and sat on the couch and continued to gaze at Amma and feeling wonderful to be with her. Then I was contemplating what it means to have faith in a guru like Amma. I was in a thoughtful mood. The room was filled with sunlight from the windows. Later on I was thinking about how they could make a computer model of the village.

Monday, August 27, 2012

Bliss State? I Don't Remember!

Dreamed that I was taking a bus to an Amma program and I wanted to be near some lady. But all the bus beds were taken and I had to sit instead. Then, at the program, everyone was dancing around and I was dancing and skipping in a circle with about 8 other people. Then the next thing I knew I was in a bed and it was morning and I was waking up. There were some people around me and they said "Last night you were looking at a book at then you went into a bliss state for 2 hours." I said, "What? Really? I don't remember being in bliss or reading a book." I was asking them questions like, "Did I look normal? Why do you think I was in a bliss state?" It was almost like a lucid dream, I felt very conscious as I was talking to them. I felt very real.

Then I woke up for real and realized I was at the ashram.

Friday, August 10, 2012

Amma in Elevator and then Spinning Around

Dreamed we were standing outside an elevator and the doors were almost closed. Amma was inside dancing and singing with people. Then a little later Amma came out of the elevator and gave me a nice hug. It felt wonderful! People were watching me holding Amma. Then Amma stepped away and started spinning around and she said something like "Amma doesn't need a hug." She was dressed in her usual bright white saree.

Amma in Front of Restaurant.

Dreamed that I was walking thru this small city with my bicycle and we were going to meet some people. Then, much to my surprise, we saw Amma sitting on a chair on the sidewalk outside of a restaurant. I thought "Oh my gosh! There's Amma!" Then I grabbed a chair to sit next to her. Right then Amma popped out of her chair and went into the restaurant. I was, of course, disappointed.

Monday, August 06, 2012

Hug From Amma in Classroom

Dreamed that I was in this meeting room like a large classroom. I was sitting on the floor against the back wall. Amma came by, sat down on the floor on my right side and gave me a wonderful hug. Her left arm was around my back and I was holding her right arm with my left arm. At one point she leaned forward over my knees and I tilted my head and put my face in her long black wavy hair. She was wearing her usual bright white saree. It's hard to express how wonderful it was to feel Amma hugging me. I felt filled with her love and compassion. A very wonderful dream.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Amma in Blue Shirt Teaching Us

Dreamed that me and some other people were laying in these blue reclining chairs. Amma was walking back and forth in front of us teaching us something (I wish I could remember what). She was in a relaxed mood and was smiling beautifully. Amma looked to be about 30 years old and she was very beautiful. I couldn't take my eyes off of her; watching her face and especially her eyes which were large and beautiful. Her skin was a beautiful shade of brown like chai. She was wearing a blue shirt. I noticed that I was wearing shorts; that made me feel a little uncomfortable, but Amma didn't seem to care. The other people seemed to be wearing long pants. Our feet were facing Amma, but she didn't seem to care about that either.

At one point I noticed a blue folding table next to me on my right side. Amma asked me to hand it to her and I did. My attitude was "I'll happily do whatever you say, Amma. Just ask." The man in the chair to my left wanted to learn the Pali language and some westerner was going to teach him.

Comment: A lot of color blue in this dream; I'd like to know what that means.

Sunday, July 01, 2012

Amma with Cube Mirror and Rocket Launch

Dreamed that I was at an Amma program. I was holding a large rolled up poster and I went up to a screen and hung up the poster. The poster had unusual pictures of Amma. In one picture Amma was swinging her head forward and it made her hair look like a mohawk haircut. In another Amma was seated next to a cube-shaped mirror and the facets of the mirror showed different distorted and surrealistic images of Amma.

Then the dream shifted and a group of us were with Amma on a rocket launch pad. A rocket was supposed to lift off soon but it was raining lightly and the sky was all gray. Amma walked out into the rain and started softly talking to herself. It seemed she was talking to the spirits of the sky, clouds and rain. Then another Indian woman with thick hair went out to join Amma and they walked around together in the drizzle. It seemed like they were good friends. They rest of us somehow knew to leave them alone and just watch. Amma was wearing dark red western style clothes.

Comment: It's unusual for me to remember two Amma dreams within a few days of each other.

Friday, June 29, 2012

Two Elephants in a Ganesha Temple

Dreamed that some people took two elephants into a Ganesha shrine. One was dark gray and the other was a light tan color. Both elephants were decorated in the traditional Indian way with gold ornaments, jewelry, paint and tilaks (sacred markings with ash and vermillion). Then I saw both elephants laying on the ground on their bellies with their front legs stretched out in front of them and rear legs stretched out behind. They were facing the Ganesha murtis (statues) that were on the altar. The Ganesha statues were about 3 feet tall. Looked like there were 3 statues on the altar platform. The dark elephant was on Ganesha's right and the tan colored one was on Ganesha's left.

At one point I was standing near the elephants looking at the statues. Then the scene switched and I was standing near the statues looking at the elephants. The elephants were both gazing at the Ganesha statues with sincere devotion and love, and they looked very nice with all their decorations. This is the first dream I remember having about Ganesha.

Comment: Ganesha (the elephant headed god) is one of the many Hindu gods. If you're not familiar with Ganesha, do a google search. The story of Ganesha is very entertaining. Every morning and evening I make a little offering to the small Ganesha statue I have in my room.

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Amma Hand Darshan and Amma Singing

Dreamed that I was helping to clean up a big hall for an Amma program. Then I was transferred to helping clean up Amma's house where she was staying during the program. We got the house looking really nice. Then Amma arrived and we lined up to greet her. We were standing on Amma's left side as she walked in. Amma's right hand was up so I reached across Amma with my left hand to touch her right hand (also called "getting a hand darshan"). Amma was wearing bronze colored western style clothes. Then Amma went to the living room for a meeting with some devotees. She sat on an easy chair and I was sitting nearby on a sofa with another person. I was on Amma's left side. It felt wonderful to be close to Amma. But soon I had to leave the meeting because someone wanted to talk to Amma privately. I stood up and then bowed down to Amma. I was feeling a lot of love and devotion to Amma and I started to cry a little. But I turned away so Amma couldn't see my tears. I didn't want Amma to think I was indulging in my emotions. After I left the room I heard some man asking Amma "What is the nature of mind?!" He was asking in a real intense, pleading voice.

Later on that evening Amma sang some songs and her voice was just so beautiful! Very heavenly! Then I went out for a walk in the neighborhood. During the walk I saw some kids riding these weird looking motorcycles. Then I came back to the Amma house. As I walked in some guy bowed down to me. I was confused and didn't know why he did this. But I touched the ground in front of him as a sign of respect. I looked to see if Amma was in the living room but she wasn't; just some devotees there meditating. One of them was crying and crying. There was some music playing and I was adjusting the volume.

Then I dreamed that I recorded this dream into a strange looking voice recorder. Later on I woke up for real. Luckily I still remembered the dream and was able to record it.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Being Tested by a Male Guru

Dreamed that I was with a male guru who was asking me to do all kinds of weird and unusual things. Like at one point I was driving a big recreational vehicle (RV) and he asked me to drive it down a staircase. I said "Sure. Why not? You're the guru." My attitude in the dream was to just do whatever the guru told me. The staircase had some 90 degree turns and somehow I drove this big RV down the stairs. It was kind of bumpy but I made it down.

At another point he requested that I make him some hot tea every evening and he created all kinds of leelas and obstacles around this task. Whenever I tried to make the tea some kind of weird situation would arise and I would just have to accept it and keep trying. I knew it was all just the guru testing me.

I was feeling some love and devotion for this guru. But it seemed pretty clear that he was not Amma. I had the clear feeling to do whatever he told me without asking why.

Monday, April 23, 2012

Amma as a Young Blond Girl

Dreamed that I was in a room with Amma and we were talking about various things. At the beginning of the dream Amma was dressed in light beige Western clothes. Later on she was a young blond girl about 5 years old. Throughout the dream I was feeling lots of love and devotion for Amma and I was feeling very blessed to be able to talk to Her. I remember reaching out and holding Her hands, Very nice. At one point Amma said something like "I need to stay here to take care of all My children."

After this dream I dreamed about eagerly looking for my voice recorder so I could record the dream. Later on I woke to use the toilet. As I was going back to sleep, the Amma dream popped into my mind and I recorded it, but I didn't remember any more details of what Amma and I discussed.

Then later on I dreamed I was walking around a really, really big red brick mansion that was being built. For some reason "mansions in the process of construction" has been a recurring theme in my recent dreams.

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Deers and Tigers.

Dreamed that I was walking in the forest along a path. The forest was mostly brown color, I didn't see any green. Then on my left I see this herd of about 7 or 8 deer. These deers were pretty big and husky, like deers on steroids. 2 or 3 of the deer had big antler racks. After a moment the deers noticed me and ran off into the woods. After all the deer were gone I then saw 2 large yellow and black striped tigers looking at me! I became scared and started to run back down the path. I didn't want to get eaten by the tigers. Then I woke up and thought to myself that whenever I see something scary in my dream I should face it directly. As I was falling back asleep I desired to go back into the dream so I could walk toward the tigers.

(This is not really a spiritual dream per se. But whenever I dream about tigers I think of the Hindu Goddess Durga, so I include it on this blog. And Amma is supposed to be an embodiment of Sri Durga in addition to being the embodiment of other divine deities.)

Amma in Black Pants

Dreamed that I and some others were sitting around Amma and she was speaking about various topics. I noticed that she was speaking perfect English. I was really enjoying just gazing at Amma and was thinking "How wonderful it is to be in this small group with Amma." (Normally Amma is surrounded by many many people.) Amma was wearing western clothes; a striped shirt and black slacks. Amma got up and started walking out of the room and I noticed that the zipper on her pants was down. A nearby lady said "Amma, let me fix Your zipper." Amma became upset and said "Why don't people tell me when this happens?!" I felt a little embarrassed for Amma.

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

Amma with Yellow Brahmacharis

Dreamed that 3 yellow brahmacharis and I where standing around Amma who was sitting in Her darshan chair. We were discussing some project with Amma. Me and one of the yellows were standing on Amma's right hand side. The yellow was talking to Amma and also adjusting his yellow head scarf (like the one that Dayamrita Chaitanya wears). Then the scene shifted and this same yellow was on his knees getting darshan from Amma. For a second I was feeling jealous and Amma then looked at me with a serious expression. Then I looked away and made a conscious choice to feel happy that he was getting darshan and let go of my jealous feelings.

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Near Amma; "Get Paul"

Dreamed that me and about 6 other people where in a living room. Amma came in and I bowed down to Her. Then Amma sat down and spoke about different kinds of spiritual teachings. I had a meditation cushion that was filled with sand and I was hitting it to flatten it out. Someone said "Hey. Don't make that noise." Amma was sitting on the sofa and I was sitting beside Her. Then Amma moved to the ground and She indicated for me to sit next to Her, which I did. It felt very nice to be with Amma with such a small group of people. At one point Amma said "Hey. Get Paul from upstairs." Then I moved to sit in front of Amma. She looked like a Western lady. I was feeling a lot of pleasure to be so close to Amma. There was more to the dream that I wish I could remember.

(Comment: The day before I got a nice Amma darshan. After the hug She gave me a nice smile.)



Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Grassy Field, Holding Amma's Feet

Dreamed I was in this large grassy field. Amma was there and I did a prostration and grabbed a hold of Her left foot. Felt wonderful! I was feeling lots of joy and devotion. I think someone else was holding Her right foot. There were more very nice interactions with Amma in the dream but I couldn't remember them. Darn!

After the Amma dream, I dreamed I was trying to find my voice recorder so I could record the dream. This tells me that I've programmed my mind to record my Amma dreams, which is great. Now if I could only actually wake myself up and do it!

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Dream Holding Dadaji's Hand

Dreamed that I was in this large waiting room like at a train station or something. I was sitting sideways on a bench and I was crying. I was feeling sad that I was feeling stuck in my body and feeling very identified with my body-mind. I was holding my head in my left hand. Then I heard someone come up behind me and say something like "Dadaji is here." I then held out my right hand over my right shoulder and (without turning around) held Dadaji's hand for a few moments while I was crying.

Commentary. A few hours before this dream I had visited a web site devoted to Dadaji (1910-1992) who was a mystic from Bengal, India (I had never heard of him before today). He was not very well known and he traveled around the world in his later years giving spiritual satsang to small groups in India, Europe and America. His message was very simple "God and Divine Love are already inside you. No need to seek for them. Just remember God." Web site is dadaji.info. Also, I have a cold so I've been feeling pretty miserable physically with lots of congestion, muscle aches and very low energy.

Thursday, March 03, 2011

Amma as Young Western Girl

Dreamed that I was at an Amma program skating up and down the hall in my sock feet on the wood floor. Amma was giving darshan and I was on Her left side. Then the dream shifted and I was holding Amma's feet. It felt really wonderful! Her feet had light skin color. I was feeling a lot of devotion and started to cry a little bit. Amma said "What's this? Why are you crying?" I looked up and Amma was a beautiful very young western girl about 3 years old. She had beautiful eyes. Then Amma said "Clean the bathroom. People may need to use the bathroom soon." I then noticed that other people were coming into the hall.

Commentary: I've had many, many dreams about skating on a floor in my sock feet. They're usually very fun dreams; I love the feeling of gliding along the floor just like an ice skater glides on the ice.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Putting Up Fences for Amma.

Dreamed that I had the job to put up some fences along Amma's property line. The property line ran along a country road. Then I was standing in the line for Amma darshan and I was going to give a little gift to Amma. Then some guy in line asked me "Did you ask Amma for permission before you put up the fences?" I slapped my forehead and said "Oh no! I forgot!" Then I thought the only thing I could do was come clean with Amma and tell Her about my mistake. When I got to Amma for my darshan I said "Amma, I forgot to get Your permission before putting up the fences. I'm so sorry." Amma said "OK, no problem, don't worry about it. Don't forget to put up this other fence in this other area." Amma was kind and forgiving and it felt wonderful to be in Her arms. Amma looked like an attractive young Western lady.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Blue Flower Petals for Amma

Dreamed that I was doing some work for Amma who was giving a program nearby. I got 2 pale blue flower petals and went up to where Amma was sitting in Her chair. Amma was wearing a blue shirt and a white dress with little flowers on them. She looked a little younger than She is now. I was standing near Amma and I held out my hands offering Her the two flower petals. I was looking at Amma with a feeling of awe thinking that She was the embodiment of the supreme consciousness. Amma was in a very thoughtful and somewhat sad mood. It seemed that She was thinking a lot about the suffering of the world and it was weighing heavily on Her mind. Amma looked at me with a sweet smile and said "Thank you." for the flower petals. Then I went close to Her, bent down and touched Her feet. It felt really really wonderful to caress Her feet for just a moment. Then I held Her hand for a moment and then Amma reached out and gave me a nice hug. A very nice Amma dream; very sweet.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Amma helps Gerry.

Dreamed that I was having lunch with my old friend Gerry S. He looked very ill and he was talking about taking his own life because he was so ill. Gerry's skin was unusually dark. As Gerry and I were talking I was aware that Amma was next door also having lunch. We walked over to where Amma was. As we approached the door to where Amma was having lunch, She appeared in the doorway walking towards me and Gerry. Amma looked like a ghost; blurry and indistinct. As She was approaching me I was wondering if it was really Amma. Then She gave me a nice hug and I knew it was really Her. I felt happy to be near Amma. Then Amma gave Gerry a hug, took his hand and started talking to him. I got the feeling Amma was helping Gerry handle the transition of leaving his body.

(Comment: Gerry was a good friend of mine back in the days when I worked at Ft. Belvoir, VA. Gerry left his body (died) in 2001.)

(Comment: Yesterday I was at a friend's house helping him with his computer. While I was there, the sister of my friend called to tell him that their father had recently gone into a coma. 2 hours later my friend called me to say his father had left his body (died).)

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Amma Can Remove 99% of Karma.

Dreamed that I was in this room with Amma and this other guy. The other guy had his lower back wired to a machine so it could get healed. I was thinking that Amma could wave Her hand and take away all his karma and back problems. I asked Amma about this and She said "Yes, I could do that. If I wanted to I could remove 99% off his karma." To illustrate this, Amma put Her hand at the top of a wooden table leg. Amma was speaking perfect English and I was looking closely at Her face. I was a little surprised at how well She could speak English. Then Amma and I were playing around and having some fun wrestling and playing other games. I was feeling very blessed to spend time close to Amma.

Right after this dream I had another dream where I ordered 7 or 8 big containers of Chinese food. I was putting the food on the counter in Pam and Ed's kitchen.

(Note: At the time of this dream I was staying at my friends Pam and Ed's place in Middletown, Maryland.)

Thursday, September 02, 2010

Amma's Feet on my Shoulders

Dreamed that Amma and I were in a bedroom talking about something. Amma got up and walked on the bed to the other side. I was feeling devotion toward Amma so I bowed down and touched my forehead to where Amma's feet had been. The bed had all white sheets and blankets. Then Amma came back and sat down near me. Her feet were close to me so I reached out and touched them. Then the scene switched and Amma's feet were on my shoulders. I was feeling very wonderful and blessed to feel Amma's feet and I was holding on to Her ankles. I remember noticing how Her dark skin contrasted with the bright white color of Her sari.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Laying Down with Amma and Talking.

Dreamed that I was laying down with Amma on a white bed. It was very innocent and no sexual energy. It was like the program was crowded and people had to sleep on the same beds to save space. I was asking Amma a few questions and we were talking a lot about the tour program. I was suggesting that in Her future tours Amma could visit a nearby city on one of Her tour stops so She could give darshan to more people. Then I dreamed I was looking at a map of the New Jersey area near Philadelphia and thinking were Amma could go near Philly. Usually when I see Amma in my dreams I feel lots of devotion, but this time I was feeling relaxed and casual. Unusual.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Sitting with Amma at a Table.

Dreamed that I was driving to an Amma program with a young blond haired lady and an older woman about my age. We were all in the back seat of the car. The young lady was telling me about her relationships. When we got to the program and stepped out of the car, she told me that she thought she was pregnant with twins. Then we went into the Amma program hall. I was surprised that there were not that many people there. Many of the chairs were empty. Amma was on stage in front wearing western clothes (khaki colored pants). Then the scene switched and I was sitting at a table with Amma on my right side. Amma was very sweet and I was telling Amma how happy I was to be close to Her. Amma patted me on the lap to show me that She was happy with me. I was leaning against Amma and feeling very wonderful to be so close to Her. I seemed to remember that the young lady was on the other side of Amma; not sure. Amma was wearing dark western clothes at the table and I think the table cloth was green.

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

Walking and Sharing with Amma.

Dreamed that Amma and I were walking down this narrow paved road and I was holding Amma's hand. There was thick, dark forest on etiher side of the road. I liked looking at the forest; dark and mysterious and full of life. I was feeling unsettled as I told Amma all about the problems I was having with my job at Golden Moon Tea. Then we were walking in a more populated area with more stores and people. It felt good to be with Amma.

[[Comment: I used to work as a bookkeeper at Golden Moon Tea; a small business in northern Viginia. I worked there from 2007 to 2009.]]

Friday, March 12, 2010

What are you doing here?

Dreamed that I was helping out at an Amma program. Amma arrived and nicely greeted some people. Then I was in a hallway and Amma walked thru with some devotees surrounding Her. Amma glanced at me for a second and Her expression seemed to say "What are you doing here?" It seemed that She was annoyed with me for some reason; I didn't know why. I felt chagrined and bowed to Amma as She walked away down the hall. Amma was in a dark blue dress.

Commentary: I arrived back in the Amritapuri ashram a few days ago after spending about 10 weeks back in the US visiting friends and family. Maybe in the dream Amma was telling me She wanted me to stay in the US?! I hope I didn't mess up! (smile)

Monday, March 01, 2010

Amma Painted in the Sky

Dreamed that I was watching these really big beautiful ethereal paintings of Amma up in the sky. It was like Amma was painted in the clouds with these beautiful orange, red, yellow and gold colors. I was seeing the spiritual body of Amma. Amma was busy taking care of various problems around the world and sometimes She had to leave. I would feel sad when She left. At one point I was watching Amma leave and feeling sad. Amma sensed my feelings and She turned to come toward me to console me. I said "No. No, Amma. Don't worry about me. I'll be OK. Please go do Your duty." Amma then continued on Her way and I was eagerly waiting Her return. I was feelings lots of devotion.

At another point in the dream I was hugging Amma and it felt so wonderful. Then Amma was walking away from me thru a field of beautiful orange, red and yellow colors. I was looking at Amma from behind and She was wearing blue jeans and a white and blue blouse. She was thinner and taller than Her actual physical body. She was going to help some other people.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Eager to See Amma Leave

Dreamed that I was at Amritapuri and I was helping people come to the ashram. It seemed that I was working with some of the swamis on this but not sure. I was standing near the main courtyard in front of the Kali temple. I knew that Amma would be leaving the ashram soon and walking across the courtyard. I was eager to finish my work to go see Amma leave. Many people were gathering at the courtyard in two lines in between which Amma would walk with Her entourage. I finally got done with my work and rushed over just as Amma was leaving. Thru the crowd I caught a brief glimpse of Amma as She and Her entourage walked by.

Friday, February 12, 2010

With some Swamis and Amma at Table.

Dreamed that I was with a group of of about 5 Amma Swamis (red robes). They were busy doing things and for some reason I was hanging around with them. At one point I saw one of them seated and working on a computer and some other Swamis were standing around him. To my surprise I saw some feces right next to the computer. I thought to myself "I might as well clean it up." I got a paper towel and reached down to pick up the feces. Just as I was about to pick it up it turned into a sweet potato. I felt relieved that I didn't have to pick up the feces.

Then the dream switched and I was at a big Amma program hall getting in line on the left side of the stage to get Amma darshan (a hug). After a while it was my turn and I was waiting on the side of the stage about 15 feet from Amma. Amma was seated at a wooden table. I was unsure about whether or not I should go to get my darshan. After a few seconds Amma saw me and with a big smile waved me over. I felt very happy. I went to the table, put both hands on the table and bowed my head down to touch my hands and the table. Amma was happy to see me and gave me another big smile. I felt wonderful. After a moment or two Amma got distracted by something else and turned away. I seem to remember that Amma was dressed in yellow robes instead of Her usual white robes. Not sure.

Sunday, February 07, 2010

Tiger of Goddess Durga?

Dreamed I found out that Bruce Springsteen could no longer write songs and give concerts. For some reason this made me very emotional; I started crying and feeling very sad. I was in a big room and I think Bruce may have also been there at some point.

Then I went to another part of the house to go to bed. I was walking down a short flight of stairs and I saw a big orange tiger resting at a landing half way down the stairs. For some reason I didn't feel nervous about walking past the tiger. As I walked past the tiger I saw Jonathan coming up the stairs toward me. He had a guitar case strapped to his back (Jonathan is an Amma devotee that I know). Then I went to my room and went to sleep. After a while I woke up (I was still dreaming) and I got very nervous about the tiger coming to eat us. A few moments later I heard a noise that woke me all the way up.

Commentary: In my sadhana I'll often sing along with the Mahay Shasura Mardini (a song in praise of Goddess Durga). As I sing along I'll try to visualize Durga. Durga is often shown seated on a seated tiger. The tiger in my dream looked just like the tiger that I see in my visualization of Durga. When I woke up I suddenly realized the tiger looked just like Durga's tiger.

Thursday, February 04, 2010

Sleep Paralysis and Amma Losing Weight

Dreamed that I was having lots of sleep paralysis. It seemed like I was sleeping in the basement of the house I lived in before I went to college. I would feel strong waves of paralysis wash over me so I couldn't move at all. It was very scary but somehow I was able to prevent the fear from overwhelming me. After 4 or 5 waves of paralysis I saw someone coming up to my bed. I think it was Amma, but not sure. The person looked like a young lady.

Then I saw Amma being interviewed by some guy. Amma had lost a lot of weight. She wasn't skinny, just a normal lean build. Amma told the interviewer that She had been eating too much prasad from Her devotees so She decided to eat less. It seemed like the prasad was some kind of dumplings like in chicken dumpling soup. I saw some dumplings floating in chicken broth (looked pretty tasty). Amma said when She started eating less She lost "mountains of weight" so She had to start eating more devotee prasad food again. Amma was wearing a light pink dress.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Spending the Day with Amma

Dreamed that one of my former girlfriends, another guy and I spent a whole day with Amma. In the dream, Amma seemed much younger; in Her late teens or early 20's. It was totally wonderful spending so much time with Amma. We did different things during the day and went from place to place; I can't remember the details. Seemed to be a sunny day. At various times during the day I would sneak up to Amma and grab hold of Her feet. I was being slightly naughty doing this but Amma didn't seem to mind. I remember Her smiling one time when I bent down to hold Her feet. I was feeling a lot of love and devotion to Amma.

At the end of the dream my former girlfriend and I were lying down together holding each other. Her shirt was off and I was feeling mildly aroused looking at her small breasts. She was talking about us getting back together but I was saying it would be best for both of us to be celibate and go live at separate ashrams.

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Amma Melting in White House

Had an Amma dream last night, the first one I've remembered in about 6 months or more. I was walking quickly through a big white house with lots of rooms and stairs, trying to find something. Everything was painted white. At one point I turned left into a bedroom and saw Amma sitting up in a bed with lots of white sheets and She was wearing Her usual bright white saree. I have a vague memory that my sister was also there with Amma; not sure. As soon as I saw Amma, I joyfully and with lots of devotion ran up to Her, sat down beside the bed and took Her hand in mine. I was feeling lots of love and I said "Oh, Amma." a few times. Amma was smiling quietly. After a minute or two Amma seemed to change shape and become misshapen, like She was melting a little bit. Then I started to feel nervous holding Her hand because I started to think it was a mouse that was going to bite me.

(Earlier that night some mice had come into my room and I had to scare them away.)

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Messy Prasad Chocolate

Dreamed that I was at this big outdoor Amma program. Lots of people were there. Somehow I was led to a seat in the second row close to Amma. At first there was some other lady (not Amma) sitting in the front. Someone beside me said something like "Oh, don't expect any darshan at this program." Soon after that Amma was sitting there in the front and She started to hand out pieces of chocolate. Amma reached out and gave some to me and soon I had a mess of melted chocolate all over my hands. I ate some of the chocolate and I was thinking about licking the rest off my hand. One small piece of my prasad chocolate fell down on the floor to my right and I leaned down, picked it up and popped it into my mouth.

I was thinking about all the other people there who weren't able to get chocolate directly from Amma but a part of me knew that Amma would take care of them in a good way. I looked to Amma and She was also eating some prasad chocolate, but She was chewing it with Her mouth open. That looked kind of yucky but I thought that Amma must be doing that for some good reason. Amma was dressed in Her usual white sari.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Amma Please Guide Me

Dreamed that I was at an Amma center with a number of large and small buildings. Amma was sitting outside on the ground with a few devotees around Her. The ground was a little bit gravelly with red hard packed dirt. The ground sloped downwards right behind us. The sky was a clear bright blue. One guy was sitting on Amma's left side and then a space opened up next to him and I sat there. I aksed the guy on my left to scoot over a little (he was sitting on a blue cushion). The guy on my right was talking with Amma and She was responding in a soft voice. I was wondering why Amma didn't have a microphone. Then Amma leaned forward a little to look at me and I looked at Her and touched Her waist. Amma was wearing a dark shirt and maroon colored pants. She gave me a quick hug. In my mind I was saying "Amma, please guide me. Please guide me. Thank You for everything." Amma could clearly hear my thoughts. She gave me a very compassionate look and I started to cry. It felt wonderful to look into Amma's eyes. I could see that Amma was really empathizing with my emotions. This was a really wonderful dream.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Amma Lifted Up.

Dreamed that I was on stage at this Amma program. A young boy was on the stage and Amma was sitting right in front of the stage. The young boy came to Amma to get a hug, but he fell and Amma also fell out of Her seat. Then I saw someone grab Amma by both hands and lift Her up, like the way a parent will lift up a young child. Amma looked to be slightly annoyed but bearing it all patiently. I was thinking the guy must be pretty strong if he could lift up Amma. Amma was dressed in Her usual bright white sari.

Then Amma, the boy, I and some other adult man stood up together on this big bed and we all put our arms around each other. The sequence was me, the young boy, the other man and Amma. The man was dressed in white and was another Amma devotee. I reached out behind their backs with my right arm and took hold of Amma's left hand. It felt really good to be holding Her hand. We were slowly moving around on the bed and Amma was speaking to us and sharing wisdom about what may be happening in the world in the near future. At one point Amma said "There will be some big changes happening soon. Maybe even as soon as this Sunday. But don't worry." Amma was speaking clearly in English and emphasizing that we didn't need to worry about all the upcoming changes. I wish I could remember all the things She said. There was some stuff on the bed and I had to make sure we didn't step on those items as we slowly moved around together in our group hug. I was halfway conscious in the dream and part of me was wondering how long the dream would last.

Monday, April 13, 2009

Amma on Stage Again

Dreamed that I was on the stage a celebrity event with lots of famous and other people also on the stage. I was looking out over the audience. There was a lot of excitement in the crowd. And then Amma was on the stage. It seemed the program was just about over. Amma gave some guy on stage a last minute hug. Someone on the stage near me said "Oh, this is Amma's last speech." When I heard that I thought "No, Amma still will do more programs." I was standing behind Amma and Her hair was very curly like an African woman's hair. I could see some gray in Her hair. Then somehow I was in Amma's arms and She was talking to me in a sweet way. Then Amma said something like "What people need is loving pairs around them." By "pairs" it seemed that Amma meant partners like spouses or significant others.

Friday, April 03, 2009

Amma on Stage at Big Stadium

Dreamed that I was at this very large Amma program being held in a really large stadium. It appeared to be nighttime and there were big lights on around the stage. I was sitting in the crowd on Amma's right hand side about 60 or 70 meters away from Her. I could look around and see tens of thousands of other people in the stadium. It looked like most of the people were wearing white. Amma was just sitting on the stage dressed in Her usual bright white sari. Everyone in the audience was just basking in Her presence. After the program was over me and some other people were in charge of cleaning the big oriental carpet that was on the stage during the program. I was vacuuming the carpet and some others were shampooing it.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Flower Petals for Amma

Dreamed that I was with Amma and I had the job of preparing rose petals for the Amma program. I was taking the rose flowers and carefully separating out all the petals and putting them in a cardboard box in front of me. As I was doing this Amma was sitting close to me. I remember seeing the rose flower in my hand and gently pulling out the petals. Often I would look up from my work to look at Amma. Amma had a nice smile and was looking at me and I was feeling very happy to be close to Her. Than Amma got a sharp knife and started to carefully cut the top off the cardboard box. Amma did some of the cutting and then I took the knife and did the rest.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Dancing with Devotion for Krishna

Dreamed that I was at Tiruvanamalai (the town in Tamil Nadu in south India where Ramana Maharshi lived at the base of the holy mountain Arunanchula). I was walking down the street and then I walked into this spacious lobby of a Krishna temple. Then I started sliding around the floor like I was skating and dancing my devotion to Krishna. It was a wonderful feeling. I was sliding around dancing waving my arms and feeling lots of devotion for Krishna. There were some glass doors and inside the main hall it seemed that there were some young Western Krishna devotees there. Some of them were dressed in white.

Comment: This dream reminds of the stories I've read about Sri Chaitanya and Sri Ramakrishna and how they sometimes danced in devotional ectasy for Lord Krishna.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Amma Darshan and Column of Yellow Vibhuti.

Dreamed that I was at this Amma program and I was last in line to get darshan. There were lots of Amma devotees there and Amma was dressed in Her usual white sari sitting in Her darshan chair. To get darshan some of us had to balance this precarious tall thin pile of yellow vibhuti so that it touched our foreheads. It was very tricky to do. I saw one young Indian girl do it (it seemed her name was Veronica). Amma was having fun laughing and joking and telling people how to do it. Then it was my turn and I think I was able to touch my forehead with the column of yellow vibhuti.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Walking with Amma and Holding Her Hand

Dreamed that I was at this Amma program. At one point She was leaving the program and walking out of the building. Lots of devotees were walking with Her. She was walking pretty fast and I saw an opening on Her right side. I popped in and took a hold of Her right hand. I was feeling happy to be so close to Amma. She was wearing a red sweater and looked like an older white lady. She had wrinkles and Her skin was pretty light colored.

As we were both walking together with me holding Her hand I was leaning close to Amma and saying "Thank You, Thank You for all You do for us. You are a blessing to all of us. Thank You. Thank You." I was feeling lots of appreciation and devotion for Amma. Then Amma said something to me like "You know that young girl that drinks who comes by? She ought to be a credenza." I was puzzled and didn't know what She meant. In the dream I was wondering if Amma was referring to my girlfriend and maybe telling me I should be careful in my relationship with her.

Then I moved to Amma's left side and took a hold of Her left hand. Again I was telling Amma "Thank You." and expressing my appreciation for all She does for us. Amma kept on walking and looking ahead. She was cool and centered and accepting what I was saying.