Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Amma Dream, 6 Feb 07, Tuesday.

I had this really wonderful Amma dream. I dreamed I was walking thru this hospital building with a stethescope around my neck. Some people thought I was a doctor but I said that someone just wanted me to deliver the stethescope to this room. I then hung the stethescope up on a hook. Then I was walking down some stairs when I heard my older brother (Tim) calling me. He was walking with another woman (not his wife) and it seemed like they were more than casual friends. Tim gave me a quick "Hello" and then he had to leave. It seemed like he didn't want me to see him with his secret girlfriend. As they walked away I was looking at her butt. It was OK but nothing to write home about. Then the scene shifted and I was hanging up some of my clean clothes in a big hotel coat closet room. Some other guy was with me and we both went into the main hall. Amma was there sitting in front of everyone with a white shirt and black pants. The guy I was with went up to Amma and did a full prostration and Amma gave him some darshan. After he left I went up to Amma and She greatly surprised me by jumping up and down once and clapping Her hands with a really big smile. It was like She was overjoyed to see me. I was very happy and slightly embarrassed because everyone was watching. I prostrated in front of Amma. As Amma was lifting me back up I kissed both of Her hands and I also briefly rubbed Her ankles and feet. It felt VERY nice to express my love and devotion to Amma. Then Amma gave me a hug and and said to me in a very clear voice "I want you to get 12 chairs and put them on a rolling cart and put them in that room over there." Amma then indicated a storage room on the other side of the hall. I felt happy that Amma gave me clear instructions and I went to some of the program organizers and relayed Amma's instructions. They immediately moved to get the job done. Then I walked to a chair toward the back and sat down. I could feel some of the other devotees watching me. I made a conscious effort not to feel special so my ego wouldn't get puffed up (I have a really big and sneaky ego). I was still basking in the glow of Amma's darshan. After a little while I got up and started walking out. Then I remembered my stuff and went back to my chair where I had left my bag and sitting cushions.

Comment: This dream happened when I was sleeping in the altar room of my Amma friend Jagadsih. He does lots of sadhana there and there's lots of pictures of gods and gurus. I was visiting him for a few days at his place in Asheville, NC.

Comment: I wondered if this dream was in response to my previous Amma dream where Amma didn't have time to give me a hug...? I felt a little disappointed in that dream.

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Amma Dream 4 Feb 07.

Dreamed that I was with my Dad in some kind of hotel lobby. Nearby were some stairs and I saw Amma standing on the stairs with some other devotees. Amma was dressed in orange robes and She was affectionately rubbing the back of the female devotee in front of Her. I was feeling very envious because I wanted to receive Amma's affection and darshan. Amma's skin was a light color and Her hair was light brown. Then the scene shifted and Amma was standing near me & my Dad. I reached out to hold Amma's hand and give it a quick kiss. As I was giving Amma's hand a kiss I was wondering what my Dad was thinking about all this devotion. I wanted to get a hug, but Amma looked at me with a sweet smile that said "I wish I could stay but I have to go now." I felt sad but I told Amma its OK for Her to leave; I would be all right. I felt a little disappointed.